its not that mean. u just have the feeling that there would be someone that could share the experience with u.. this desease is really hard to deal with

It will also make it a lot easier to go back and visit home, because right now the house is chock full of gluten, but he still lives at home and there would have to be safety in the kitchen and I could have someone to share meals with.

You are not being mean!!!! Remember that your feelings are just feelings. They aren't bad, they just are! IF you were acting on them, that would be bad. Take it easy on yourself, let yourself off the hook. It sounds like you care about him very much! I can read the love in your writing.


It is natural to want to have someone who understands how you feel. In fact, my mom just passed the week before Christmas. She never had patience for me. (I have permanent excruciating leg pain from nerve damage due to misdiagnosis for ten years.) When she started being treated for cancer two years ago, it caused severe leg pain. She stopped nagging at me and understood for the first time. When she passed two weeks ago, I felt like I lost the one person who understood how I feel dealing with this pain everyday. I did not want her to continue living in the pain and agony that the cancer caused her. Yet, I still grieved the loss of someone who understood. It sounds to me like this is what you are feeling.