does everyone go through this? when my mom is in a bad mood, i think she's going to die. seriously, a year and a half ago she had a heart attack, a series of them, while i was sleeping in the next room. with ear plugs on. she didn't die, she's still here, but the guilt i feel about "ignoring" her pain, still keeps me up at night. now i'm like the heart police; constantly checking on her to see if she's breathing...and then i can't sleep. when she's tired or bitchy i ask her if she needs to go to the hospital. i really question my sanity. there are times i truly wish we didn't live together. times when i feel close to the edge. now today, she's in a good mood, like she'll live forever! how do i get over my neurotic behavior???
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