I must be the most selfish b---- that ever lived. I take care of my 90 yr old mom but not myself. I have no longer got a life of my own. I do love her but I don't know how much longer I can go on. And I don't need someone during the day for a few hours. I need my life back. She wants to stay with me and won't even consider assisted living. She doesn't have a clue how hard this is for me. I am not well myself and I am getting worse everyday. I have physical problems and am bipolar. I can't go anywhere with my husband because I can't leave her alone. She had a big fight with my sister who she used to live with and she won't go back. And my sister refuses to take her back even if she would go. She had all the room in the world at my sisters and I have no room in my small house at all. There is just stuff all over the place and I can't fit another thing. She sleeps in the living room because she can't climb the stairs all the time. She had her own room at my sisters. This is just stupid and I am worn out. I don't know what to do. If she went to assisted living she would have friends and places to go. But she won't even consider it. I would still see her every day. I want her to be happy, but I want a life too. Am I just a selfish b----? And I don't want her to think I don't want her.
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