I am sure I am going to ramble but it would be nice to have someone read this who understands a little of how I feel. I am a 24 year old single parent of two girls, while also caring for my 8 younger siblings, ages 8-19. My dad has diabetes, and over the last few years has had some small strokes, the latest being just a few days ago. His memory is greatly impaired and the doctors have informed my mom that he needs to have constant supervision. My mom works 12-14 hr days and both of us are going to school right now. SHe is incrediably busy and the doctor got very mad at me last time he was in the hospital bc he screams and yells at me when I try to have him take his medicine and eat properly. I feel depressed and angry at him bc I feel he could have made better choices with his life and it wouldnt have affected mine so much. I feel I am giving my life away to care for a family. There are days I wonder if I will ever have a boyfriend, or a husband bc I never leave the house. I feel like a prisoner of my own choice. I love my family and I understand that I can leave if I wanted, but I dont feel like its really an option. Someone has to care for my family and there is noone else for the job. My older 4 siblings left the house and try to avoid the entire situation and get angry at me for staying and wasting my life away. I am hoping for some support from someone who understands. I feel very Lonely.
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