I have been caring for my 85 year old mother full-time since 2005 and I placed her this summer in a six bed resident home here in our small home town. It's a wonderful place and I put her there so my family could spend the summer together. My husband works out of town during the school year until he can transfer back here and he was going to be home for 8 weeks, so I thought I needed to give him some solid attention. Mother had a stroke in 1999, doesn't speak, paralyzed on the right and can be difficult at times. My intention was to only place her for the summer and she knows she's coming back the middle of August. My problem is ... I'm not ready for her to come back. They say she is doing fine there, but I know it's only because she knows it's temporary! You would think after not having her for 10 weeks, I wouldn't feel these overwhelming feels of "I can't do this again." I feel so selfish that I just want to have the life I had this summer ... a normal family, a normal relationship with my husband. I have been involved with mother's care since her stroke and have two brothers who don't participate. One hasn't seen her in nine years ... the other lives local and sees her about 6 times a year. I feel so alone and now that my husband has returned to work out of state ... I feel like my going back to prison ... I love my mother, but I don't feel like she appreciates the sacrifice that is being made for her.
Thanks for listening!
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