Right now I am feeling, sad, angry, frusterated, overwhelmed. Hubby, is having issues both physically, I can deal with that, but the TBI is driving me crazy. I want to cry, I don't know what is going on with me today. I want to bite his head off, but know that that is not OK either. He stole my car keys so I know now that I have to hide them. He is determined that he is going to drive the car. He says cruel things to me and kids. Anyway, Today the Landlord told me that I have to get rid of my baby (my dog). We weren't home and she showed aggression when he tried coming into the yard. He said that Insurance would cancle his insurance. She even went to hospital and nursing home with me and laying on his bed. The problem is, she is a mixed pit bull and though she is a sweetie(her name) she scares people because of her breed. I understand,just angry that I am going to loose my lifeline, my baby and then fear of what will happen to her. I am trying to put her in a no kill shelter, One is a waiting list, another I can't get through and then one is a no kill depending on the dog. She is part pit, what do you think they will do. People are rightfully afraid of them, but she is nice. She was just letting them know that they were trying to come into our (her) yard and we were not home. The Landlord knew that too and tried to come in anyway. Anyway, was already feeling feelings and then that just put me over the edge. I just feel like crying. There is more in my jornal.
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