HI, My name is Rex. I live in North Carolina. I have what we call "adhd" at the age of 23, still....

and to me thats a huge ordeal because what I have done and am trying to accomplish while having this huge weight on my shoulders.

Here is a little history that I will write concerning me and my past dealing with add. When I was 9 my mother decided that she needed "outside" help with me and my adhd. So she took me to The Department of Mental Health in Charleston, SC...where I was initially diagnosed with ADHD, and other impulsive orders. They put me on ritalin, and other medication that I cant remember at this time. It was a nightmare to say the least since it was my first time away from my mother and my sister. From there I went to 8 facilities for kids with ADD. In the time span that led to be about 9 and a half years...I missed out everything concerning "family", "friends", and "education". I was doped up for those 9 years, and I have no idea what the medication' effects are doing to my body right now, but I was a lab rat in those facilities. It all seems like a horrible nightmare for someone at that age...but it is true, and I suffered so many horrible memories. I was also sexually molested in one of these facilities as well, and when I tried to tell anyone, I was labled a pathological liar...and the staff and therapists started to question if I had actually molested anyone and sent me to another facility when I was 13 in simpsonville, sc....called Generations.....I didnt belong there, and I was wrongfully diagnosed. I spent two years there for nothing....

While all this was going on, I missed my mothers two graduations from USC, and FMU. I missed the death of my great grandfather, and I was thrown out on my own after realizing that I could not survive on my own after completing a program out of Columbia, SC...and going home to realize my own mother was also falling apart...mentally and physically.

All these events dont even include what happened outside of these facilities when I went to visit my mother and sister....there are so many things to tell...I am at a loss for words other than to say that I need help to overcome this feeling that I have that I am and forever will be a failure in society....unless I achieve my dreams....being a famous actor and musician....or someone who can be a living, breathing spokesperson for ADHD and traveling to tell kids that I have been through exactly what they have been through....

But this is soley about me trying to find help, in how to keep a job, or seek other means of a career, but also finding friends and people who can read this and understand from a point of view, instead of always judging someone and condemning that person.