Kinda freaked out about joining this group. Always thought i was too good or something to be bullied. This is probably going to be long. Around thanksgiving i found out my fiance had been cheating on me for 3 weeks, at that same time we had sex and when i kept telling him to stop because it hurt, he wouldnt he just told me to shut up and take it. Later that day he put a knife to my throat. The next day i just broke down and told my family everything. We went to the cops a few days later. In the beginning of december he was arrested and apparently confessed. But according to my lawyer, they will find a way to throw the confession out or something. After he was arrested, i was seriously being bullied. People on facebook were saying how much of a liar i was, that i made everything up, that im a piece of shit, ugly, that i wasnt good enough and thats why he cheated, a bitch, that apparently he said i was annoying, a cunt, etc... I was even being threatened. And people were calling my phone, i had to change my number. Because of this, i wont go back to school. I was already on homebound, but now i absolutely cant go back. I was scared to leave my house for a long time. While going through this, i was so hurt by everything that i seriously hit rock bottom and i tried to kill myself. I was just hurting too bad and wanted it all to stop. I even stopped eating for about a month and lost weight from it. All i did was lay in bed and cry. Then i found out today that people are still talking crap. I see it as, if im lying then why did the cops find evidence? If i was lying then he still wouldnt be in jail waiting for trial. I dont know if it bothers me or if i find the whole thing funny that they are still talking about it, no one is going off of facts. I was with this guy 8 months, and i cant even tell you how much i loved him. We spent almost everyday together for awhile and things were just amazing. But that last month, he was just using me for sex because the other chick wasnt putting out. I had a feeling he was cheating even had a dream about it, but i continued to believe him.
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