Today I was having a moderate day despite last nights crying jag with the STBX. That is until lunch time. I was walking out of the cafeteria at work and within a few steps my ankle turned. I fell onto my left knee and planted my face into my burger basket. I had catchup dripping off me from brow to waist. I have a big gash in my knee. It hurt but I have had worse. I just sat there holding my knee and bawling like a child. In front of my boss and all my coworkers no less. It was just the latest in the long list of cosmic jokes I seem to be getting handed lately. I just feel like life has handed me a giant FUCK YOU note lately. In the last few months I have had multiple illnesses, a fender bender, a separation and multiple days like today. It takes all my strength lately just to haul my own ass through the day. I dont know how much more I can take.
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