My god its tough...your with someone 21 years, you know things weren't perfect for the whole time but there were a lot of good times, more good than bad. It's just hard knowing that you just don't matter to that person anymore. Yep I know its over - a part of him will always be in my heart. We have been civil - because no matter what happens - he is the father of my kids - two great kids - who have the best and worse of both of us - we'll always be a part of each others life no matter what. Its hard to say good bye to your friend - a real friend - not the person who tells you he wants to be a friend now. What is that anyway - how can you be indifferent to someone who you love...Not sure...our marriage didn't work - but I don't see myself as a failure because of it - why I've got two great kids, their not perfect but they're good and I am proud of them, I am a good worker, I work hard and good at what I do, I am a good friend, good daughter - good mom -just wasn't a good wife to him - wow - life throws one a lot of curves - you grow with them and you make choices and decisions to get thru it - some good some bad - somehow you just make it thru.
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