My neice (his neice) was married yesterday and I only went to the church. H is living w/ "her" now. Told him last week I could only go as a couple and emailed him last week to put himself in my shoes; would he want to go to reception w/ me knowing I was going home to sleep in someone else's bed. He's been asking for past 2 weeks and trying to get me to go. Needless to say, yeserday was tough. We went to see his grandmother after the church so we looked like a family. We talked some, he asked what I would last night and I gave him vague answers and told him I was curious why he asked. No real response. So today, he's working and as usual I can't stop thinking about him. Ended up texting him to call me and he did. He only had a few minutes. Ended up telling him I was confused by the way he acts, does he have any intentions of coming back? You know, the usual desperate stuff. Told him I was vague because I didn't want to say anything mean-and I have alot of mean things to say. He listend but didn't really give me an info. When I asked if he had any intentions on coming back he said I don't know. He'll be renting a house on his own soon and I asked if the plan was for her to move in; I don't know. You know, I just want some straight answers and he doesn't give them. Yes, I know he's still stringing me along. I really don't know what his feelings are for me. Is he just trying to sheild me from hurting me more? I mean I'm just looking for the truth, I've already been hurt beyond anything I've ever imagined. Honestly, I don't think she's a prize but he obviously sees something in her. I did do good yesterday when I saw him and I know I made him think. But what he's thinking I have no idea. Looking for some help here.
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