I asked for the divorce....about 6 weeks ago. My husband is a great person but we married very young (I had just turned 23) and I had no idea what traits and habits that I would need in a man at that time. Over what is about to be 6 yrs of marriage, I really tried to find happiness with him. I couldn't do it. I wanted to so badly....but instead I started searching for a connection somewhere else after frustrations of not finding it with him. It was an emotional and physical affair that made me realize I did not love and respect myself or my husband and I needed to ask for a divorce. He is unaware of the affair (there were 2 other ones ealier in the marriage, he is unaware of both). I hate myself - I am an emotional mess. I miss my husband...mostly just having someone to be there with. I'm still talking to the man I had the affair with...not dating but just grabbing a drink once a week. I really care for this man and he seems now be seriously distancing himself from me. Do I need to be with someone? Do I not have the guts to take on life and my past mistakes on my own? The first couple of weeks on my own seemed pretty good but this past week I've been an emotional mess. Crying constantly, unable to focus for work, not able to wake up in the morning...I think I'm in the middle of a very serious depression. I've been in therapy and it doesn't seem to be helping. Will I get better?
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