My (soon to be ex) husband and I live together, even though he has a girlfriend. He has a daughter from a previous marriage and we have a 4 month old son together. We still have sex and sleep in the same bed, holding each other all night. I was basically a virgin when we met and disagree with sleeping with anything that has a pulse (such as his new girlfriend does). He keeps telling me to just have a one night stand because it will make me feel better and cure me of all my feelings for him. I'm not the one night stand type, but right now I feel so horrible that I'm willing to do just about anything to feel better, if only for a minute. I was just wondering if anyone has any experience with this. I've still only ever slept with him. I'm afraid to even be intimate in my *next* relationship, if I ever get involved with anyone again because I only know his body. Is that normal? Another thing... He knows that I'm okay if we have sex (I really want us to get back together though) as long as we keep feelings/love out of it. I told him that the only way for that to really happen is if we don't kiss or be slow, etc. He kisses me every time. He even kisses me when we are just sitting on the couch or cooking dinner. Sometimes it feels like he even goes out of his way to make love to me, rather than just do it and get it over with. It's really confusing me. He also said that he will always have sex with me anytime, forever because I'm just that good. I don't even know what questions I need answered, so any advice would be welcomed. I'm moving out in August with our son and his mistress/girlfriend/homewrecking whore is supposed to be finding them a place to stay until then. I'm just so confused and he assured me that he never wants to get back together, unless she does something that he doesn't like. Should I hold on for that? PLEASE HELP!!!!!
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