My boyfriend and I of 8 years have recently broken up. During the 8 years, there were a lot of ups and downs, ie, cheating, verbal abuse, lies, financial heartache, etc. I've never cheated on him, called him bad names, yelled, or anything. My self esteem now is little to nothing. I know he doesn't love me the way I need him to. I guess I felt deep down he would settle down eventually and come to love me the way I wanted him to. I know you can't change a person, which is one reason I am today where I am. I'm 27 and have wasted 8 years on this guy. I saw him yesterday and there seemed to be no emotion whatsoever on his face. I was in tears because his moving to a different state on Sunday. My question was, how can you walk away so easily from 8 years? I know deep down I deserve better and he knows I do also. But I keep calling and chasing him down so I can get some kind of reassurance from him. I'm scared to be alone and I guess will except whatever conditions as long as I have someone there to "love" me. It's not true love. I know time will heal this pain, but I'm looking for something to help me throughout the long days.
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