I talked to my stbx last night. He kept begging me to come back to him. I kept telling him that us not being together was the only way I knew to make him realize that he was wasting his life. I cared about him and I want what is best. He kept telling me how every night after work he drinks with friends from work and ends up sleeping at the riding club because he's to drunk to drive home. He kept telling me how he's working all the time so that he doesn't have to be at home and how he thinks about me all the time and cries all the time. He keeps telling me this stuff knowing that it's going to hurt me, to know that I'm hurting him. I avoided saying the word divorce last night, didn't want to get that started again. I was just to tired...but why is he telling me all this??? Why is he doing this, knowing it's going to make me feel guilty??? I hate this!!!
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