We had a severe toilet issue today. Not a good place to be with a family of 6 and one potty. My STBX is a plumber by trade. He was nice enough to come down and fix it..he was loaded however. I asked him to stay and watch a movie with us, he said he probably should but was on a mission to get WASTED...I asked him if he was ever going to make the right choice. Not tonight he said.. gotta finsih what i started...what about the family he started? I cried of course, and looked weak and needy and he triumphantly drove off into the sunset with a 30 pack of gross keystone light. In his dads truck!!! He said he'd been thinking about what i've been saying and doesn't want to lose our family, but, my god!!! What can i do with him wanting to party and avoid our situation constantly.. I told him we NEED HELP! He said he thinks he needs help and has problems..i said we both do, but i have faith that if we take that route, anything is possible. He just wont stop being so stubborn. He just is hell bent on punishing me. He said he's in such pain he cant function, then why not allow me to be there and try? I mean in 10 years he'll be doing the same thing if he doesn't get the lesson. Im still here and trying and he just wants to do the same bs..Do ikeep trying, do i leave him to his own devices? Why doesn't he see whats at stake here, and although he expresses moments of clarity that he does..why wont he make some changes...it all seems like such nonsense when he chooses a night at the bar to a chance to have a family. I dont know what to do...losing vision every moment. I don't want to live like this. He knows not what he does. What do i do?
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