On July 8,2011. I got the worst words I ever wanted to here from my boyfriend of 6 months that was "It was over" . He send me those words in a text message saying I was to clinging and that I never gave him space, but really I did give him space . I only seen him on the weekends and ever three months I spent a week with him . These last two months have been the hardest for me . Its been the hardest because I am use to talking to him ever day and now its like we never talk at all. He has told me that he wants to be friends , but truly I am not sure if I can be friends with someone that I love so much . Its like he wants me to forget that I ever loved him. I am so tired of him telling me that he is here for me if I need to talk. I cant talk to him because I always want to scream at him . Today My mom throw away the teddy bear that he gave me because she said that I don't need it any more and I want to just run to the trash and take it out because its the only part of me and him that I really have left, besides the sweater of his that I still have. Some times Ill take that sweater out and cuddle in bed and just cry myself to sleep because I miss him so much. I need help this is not good for my health and I'm tired of going out in the world with a fake smile pretending everything is all right when really I'm on messed up inside.
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