I am so angry with myself, I allowed so much balled up hurt, frustration and anger, that allowed my anger to get the best of me. I hit and hit and hit tell i lost energy. I know it was totally wrong and out of place. but why does he keep saying things to me that is so hurting? I should not allowed myself to be so vulnable to him, I know I am better then that. I knew to continue to sleep with him knowing that it was over was so wrong and degrading, but i just wanted to still have some connection. I looked at the damage I done to his face last night, and i just had to fall to my knees and ask god to PLEASE remove me from this situation, cause I am a walking time bomb that's about to have a nervous breakdown.
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