Ok its nearly 2am sunday morning and my wife has been gone since 9am Saturday morning.She doesn't even talk to me let alone tell me what she's doing and she doesn't have to she's an adult who can make her own decisions. So why am I making myself nauseous thinking of what she might be doing? Best case scenario is she is just out with friends but I know she has been having sex with a guy from her work and just thinking that she may be doing that right now just makes me want to throw up. Yeah she has told me that she wants a divorce but thats only been loke a month ago. Why did she have to start doing that when the pain of my nearly 10 year marriage ending is still so fresh for me. It just seems so cruel. She has the rest of her life to screw other men so why now? How do I stop worrying about what she's doing? The thought of another man inside my wife,the person I watched my 2 Kids come out of just gives me the sensation of having a panic attack and then getting sick to my stomach to the point where I have thrown up twice tonight. I wish I didn't love her because then I wouldn't care. Please any Ideas on how to get these thoughts out of my head let me know soon before I explode.
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