OK so its been 2 months or so since my husband left to figure out his life. I feel more and more miserable everyday and its getting frustrating, the not knowing what's going to happen to us. I try not to ask him about coming home everytime I talk to him but I can't help it. I think I am pushing him further away by trying to force him to make a decision but like I said I can't help myself, my patience is running out. He still is no happier with himself now than when he left. Still says its not me and he doesn't want a divorce at this point. Some days he's nice and other days he blows up at me for things I have no control over. Its like I'm his emotional punching bag. He says he still loves me and cares about me but then why does he treat me so badly some days? Every day I tell myself I will not call him I will give him space but then he calls me and I would never ignore his calls like he does to me sometimes. UGH I am tired of feeling like I'm a dog chasing its tail.
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