I am getting mad at myself now, this has been going on for too long now. Seperated 10 months, been back and forth to give it a try. I am currently there for 5 weeks now, and things are worst than ever, mostly not talking very much. I started doing things i want to do, he has been alittle bit better about it, but I think he is just holding his tongue for now. My apartment lease comes up in 3 weeks and I must decide what the heck to do. I feel that I don't have much in me to try anymore, and I don't think he does either. This really hurts, and has been a nightmare for me for almost a year now, I am mad at myself that I cannot make a decision, or to do what's best.
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