Had another blow out with my husband this week. Wednesday he was short tempered with me and the boys, all because he got offended because of what I said. This is what happened...He said "What the heck??" Cole said "AAAWWW Daddy you said a bad word!" He looked at me and said what did I say that was bad? I told him that he said the word 'heck' and that was not a very nice word and not appropriate for the boys to be saying at their age. He said what's the big deal? I said, well you freaked out when the neighbor kid said it. He said he did not freak out! I said ok, you got upset when the neighbor kid said it. He doesn't remember that, but that is beside the point. So for the rest of the day he is short tempered, and complaining about anything, and everything. Well I guess I was sighing and making little tisk noises (which also offended him) periodically throughout the day. I told him if he was upset with me, he should not take it out on the boys! If he has a problem with me, that is between me and him, not for the boys to pay for too. I also said, you mean to tell me that because I offended you in the morning, you ruined the rest of the day for all of us? Yes was his answer. Well I said the boys should not have to pay for my mistakes, and so what if I offended you, they should never have to pay for what is happening between us. "Oh so now I'm a terrible father!" No I didn't say you were a terrible father, just pointing out that they should never have to pay for the things that are going on between us. He said, "like they would have if you had gone through with the divorce?" I said you can't even compare the two. Besides you were the one that told Cole that you didn't know when or if you were coming back and when he asked you why you told him that Mommy didn't want him to. (that was last summer when he said that but I brought it up again, probably not productive, but after hours of hearing what a terrible wife I am I couldn't stop myself) Anyway, the argument basically ended in a truce and a 'let's start fresh tomorrow' and at 4am I was thoroughly exhausted, and agreed. We shall see how long the good behavior lasts, I bet it won't last the weekend. Anyway, he says I am not trying, I think he is blind! Would I still be here if I wasn't trying to save this marriage? How many other people do you know that would stick around for this crap? I didn't say that, but sure wanted to!
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