I was married for almost 10 years, to a mentally unstable man, with a short, violent temper. He was verbally abusive to me mentally & emotionally. He would also get violent, physically, never hitting me, but would thrown things, slam doors, and also get in my face & scream & curse me out. He has been in and out of therapy & on meds for depression for years. Everything in our marriage was based on him, and his mood. I was always the \"normal\" one, who had to take care of him and try to keep him from being angry all the time. I finally accepted the fact that he will never be happy, no matter what I do. Now that I finally got the courage to divorce, and it\'s been 2 months since he moved out, now I\'m the headcase. I\'m depressed, and cry a lot. Getting through the holidays was horrible. I, and most everyone who knew my situation says I should be glad/happy that someone who has been so horrible to me is gone, but I\'m having a really difficult time coping now that he\'s not here. I don\'t remember what it\'s like to be \"normal\"...it\'s so quiet without any yelling, slamming doors, which always turned me inside out. What\'s wrong with me??
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