why have i been all he needed all though our marriage , it was a good marriage , a solid one so i thought , nothing and noone could ever come between us we were devoted to each other worshipped the ground each other walked on then wham 6 months ago he meets a grrek woman online and im no longer good enough hes flying out there to start a new life and destroyed mine to the point i really dont want to live im so in love with him , i want to hate him for what hes done to me but i cant maybe the hate will follow but right now im in too much pain , why cant he see what hes doing is hurting me , does he even care i know we could have the perfect marriage again i just need the chance to show him but hes just so stubburn and wont back down i know we and myself would be ok if we were back together but i just cant see the point without him i was applying for othe jobs and got interveiw in another part of country i was going to go there change my name leave no contact with anyone i dont really matter to anyone apart from my daughtr maybe my son but he doesnt care that much , i wouldnt be missed if i decided to dissappear off the face of the earth ive been thrown on the rubbish heap i mite as well be there than this sad hurtful painful existance
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