I'm getting ready to leave my STBX for the second time. Set myself up for failure twice with him. I just don't understand how he can be so indifferent to me? I just never thought he would leave me! Here I am crying and carrying on and he just looks at me with no emotion! I mean it's like I don't exist. Why is it so easy for life to go on for him and it's a struggle for me every day? It's like I don't know who he is anymore? I think he's going through a midlife crisis. I just wish I could be strong and not show how much this hurts. Do you all think that once were apart for an extended amount of time that it will get better? We don't have children so we will have no reason to see or talk to each other.
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