i feel so silly that i've yet to get my excitement about life back. it still seems like in my career i'm only doing enough to get by and not throwing myself into projects like i used to. i dawdle and waste a lot of time that i feel could be used to do positive things. complete lack of desire to do anything beyond basic functions... i used to be so self motivated and disciplined. when does it come back?
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