Its getting to be that time of day on the Friday before the weekend when I won't have my kids. That feeling of having to spend several days away from them and having to realize, again, that the stbx has moved comfortably into her new life without looking back over her shoulder even once at me or what I once was to her. I have things to do this weekend, and will even see my son at baseball practice tomorrow night for an hour, but there is that familiar pain I have, that makes absolutely no sense to have whatsoever. This is a woman who gave nothing, demanded everything and sought to completely detroy me as a person and financially in the end. So where does the pain come from? Missing the dream of a family...always missing my children...the fear that the eventual StepDad might take my place in their young lives. I just feel a bit discarded these days. The ex was 10 years younger than I so she'll have an easier time with re-establishing herself with a man. I feel like an old, failing bull put out to pasture. Can we say Pity Party? I need a part time job. Anyone have any siggestions for part time work?
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