I have been married 25 years. Long story short, I am in an emotionally abusive relationship. I no longer feel. I feel nothing emotionally. I am numb. I do feel for my kids. I try to love and have desire for my husband but as soon as I get back into the "zone" he usually cuts me down for one reason or another. Then I get pissed and all is out the window and we are starting over. I have 3 grown boys and I am torn about continuing in a relationship with no love or keeping it together so they have the structure and the family unit. My husband just threatened today that he is sticking with it till his mother dies. Me I am thinking bullshit, if it ain't working lets do it. It will be 25 years in October, but for me I consider it 25 years of hell. With my attitude, seems like separation and divorce is the only solution. Let me know if you need more information as I know you are only hearing my side of the story. I also want to know thoughts on what someone in the same situation should do? I have wanted to leave since 1994 but never had the guts because the kids were young and needed daycare, etc. Believe it or not I allowed the disrespect and criticism to continue since then. The person I am married to is very MEAN and knows how to take a good punch. Basically it is always my fault right on down to "what did you do with the remote?"
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