Wow. I never thought I would get a divorce. After two years together and one year of marriage, my husband decided he wasnt ready for the responsibilities two days ago. We have a five month old daughter together and I thought we could really work things out and give our daughter the home she deserves. But, he always said he would work on the things that we had problems with, and I tried to work on my things. He never tried though. He decided a little late that he wasnt ready to grow up and have a family. He always lied and expected me to do things for him. I had to do everything for the baby, and yes, I stayed at home...but weekends he could have helped. I am so afraid to be alone again, and this time with a baby. Im not sure I can do this alone. I have my family, but its not the same. I miss him holding me when I cry. Now, I hold nothing and cry alone. When does this get easier? Will I ever not cry myself to sleep, feel nauseous, or cry when I wake up?
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