This weekend I have spent packing up the remains of our life together. My daughter and I have to move out in about a month (back in with my parents). It has been very difficult going through all of our stuff - cards, letters, pics, gifts, wedding albums, etc. that we have shared. I have thrown out alot of things but some I just can't bring myself to throw out. I have put a bunch of things in a box for when my stbx comes to pick up his stuff. I want him to have to sit there and go through it all and feel all the emotions that I am feeling - if that's even possible. Looking at the pictures and cards and all the loving and happy times makes me feel so very sad and makes me think this is all so senseless. My hatred and rage has subsided for a little bit. I keep thinking that someone is going to knock on my door and tell me that this is all some sick f*cking joke. I know that is not going to happen. My stbx will soon knock on my door to bring our daughter back from her weekend visit. That is the reality as shitty as it is. What do you do with all of the stuff from your life together?
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