I was with this guy for 5 years. Talking about marriage, kids etc. We starting looking for houses (we never lived together). We started to get into a negotiation for a house. In the middle of the negotiating war he says he isn't sure he wants to leave his apartment. This comment has since snowballed into "I'm not sure this relationship is making me happy", "I don't want to be responsible to someone else","maybe I would feel differently with someone else, but maybe I don't know how good I have it". Punctuated by breaking everything off yesterday morning. I am devastated but at the same time completely numb. I worry I am in shock, but don't know how to start this. I guess the biggest blow is no warning signs and being thrown away like trash after 5 years for no really good, able to understand, reason. Any pointers for me?
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