Talked to my stbx today. Very civil. Left for co worker months ago. Now he says he is sorry that all this ever happened but whats done is done and we will get divorced but that you never know what could happen in the future. Says he still dreams of me and misses our family. That he still thinks of us when he does things with them. Then he'll say that this would have happened anyway and she just helped it along. What does he want for me to feel sorry for him? For me to know that this is hurting him too? I know that it has but not as much as it hurts me to see him being with another woman and her family. I told him that the guilt he may feel just doesn't compare with what he dropped on me and the kids. That he has put me thru months of well you all know the stages. why would he tell me all of this when i know he realizes how this has affected me and probably will for a long time. I told him i have no answers for him and that i have a hard enough time getting myself together. Then he says that he hopes i find a man that will make me truly happy because that is what i deserve. i don't understand this man at all. What does it mean when he says he would like to turn back time so that this would never happen but since that is impossible, our divorce is just inevetible. His mixed messages confuse me. I spend too much energy trying to figure it out. i wish i could be stronger and stay angry and just say f off. is he playing on my sympathy to get me to think that he is one confused SOB or is he really one confused SOB and what difference does it really make to my son and me.
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