I just split with my husband the day before thanksgiving which was also 3 days before my 42nd birthday. Today I threw out my 21 year old son who got out of prison 2 months ago and hasn\'t lifted a finger to help me. All of a sudden I find myself sitting on 4 acres in the middle of nowhere building a house by myself while living out of a small cottage and a barn. I have no family nearby but am visiting my sister in Seattle for Christmas...yeah! My husband got all of the friends in the separation since the only friends he ever wanted to hang out with or would approve hanging out with are those whose paychecks he writes...including mine. His family lives nearby but won\'t speak to me except in an emergency for fear of his wrath. I don\'t want to hang out in a bar and can\'t find any support groups nearby except for this one. So...what do you do other than work, clean and watch TV? I\'ve never been alone before and don\'t have any idea as to what normal people do when they have this time. I don\'t want to sit here and get depressed because I\'m afraid that I\'ll never get out of it, I have a horrible history of depression.
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