What you are feeling is not uncommon. It is depression and it's paralyzing you. It will not be easy. Just try to force yourself to do 1 thing. Then when you are done, try to do 1 more thing. Many of us know how you feel....not knowing what to do. Keep moving...one day it will be much clearer and you will see the sun behind the clouds.

My thoughts are with you. It's a huge rollercoaster that you are on and it is very difficult. Read the posts, talk to the people here, they are great and you will find that you are not alone.

I was going to post this as the quote/thought for the day.

There is no object so foul that intense light will not make it beautiful Ralph Waldo Emerson

When you are immersed in darkness you cannot see the beauty that surrounds you. You are so depressed and downtrodden with thoughts of what is happening within your life that you cannot see the beauty of life anymore. Divorce and breakups are synonymous with darkness. The lies, deceit, hurt, pain, guilt, despair, or whatever may be holding its grip on you, it permeates so deep to keep you from seeing the beauty that surrounds you. You walk around with the black cloud of darkness and despair, a cloud you can actually feel upon your shoulders. It weighs you down and maintains your focus. You feel it everywhere; driving, in the store, at work, at school and even at home.

Although the darkness feels overwhelming, realize that light dispels darkness and darkness cannot prevail when light is present. Your thoughts are like a beacon of light that can dispel the darkness. Focus your thoughts and attention on what is still right and pure within your life. Focus on those wonderful children you are blessed to love, raise and see grow into young adults as they achieve their aspirations and dreams. Focus on the family and friends you have to provide support and encouragement. Focus on your love for your dog, and any other pets you may have (for me, its Duchess, my wonderful dog). Focus on the fact that you are blessed to live without poverty and you can go online and talk to strangers like we do here. Focus on the fact you are alive to live and to love again.

Love and Light never cease to prevail. Light will always prevail over darkness as will Love. Continue to love and see the love and light in all and you will prevail.

glenn424,That was great and great advice. you are so right.
hurtingforhim76531,you are not alone, there are many emotions that you will go though but keep talking and you will get though this time