Well, instead of coming pick up Keith he called and asked if i could meet half way. At first I was like hell no b/c at my house I could stay in the back till he left and wait till he leaves. Then I was like well,, maybe it would be better to meet down the road so I wouldnt be sitting here all anxious. So I met with him at the Wal Mart and just unloaded some things out of my car to him and me and my son got back in. He started flagging me down and I stopped and he asked when we were going to talk about our community settlement. I told him I had jotted down some things on a paper in his bag. He said well do I text you or something? I said thats fine and drove off. I saw in his eyes hes not done. That scares me. Thank God I was wearing sunglasses cause he would have seen it in me too. Its the weirdest feeling. Its like you know youre better off splitting. You know the common sense thing is to let it go. Then you have this flame in your heart that still burns. I hope it'll extinguish soon. I really dont want him back in my life. I just miss the person he pretended to be before I saw the real Billy. What a tug of war!
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