Well...Friday is here. And...once again I'm feeling depressed. I used to love the weekends...now I can barely tolerate them. During the week, I have my work schedule and other activities that keep me busy. But, when Friday comes...there is no set activity and I feel very alone. Most of my friends have family activities planned...so I feel like the odd man out. Does anyone feel like this...like they are floating out there all on their own??? It's a scary feeling to me. Almost like abandonment. I know better than this...that I have to learn to be alone...but why is it so difficult?? It's been 9 weeks now...you would think I would be getting better at this.
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