Anyone out there having a relapse related to the weather and season? I thought that I would be feeling a lot better when it got warmer. But my son/husband and stbx all were part of an outside activity Friday night,of course I had to hear it from my son Saturday, not his fault. Then, I started to think about how it would have been me last year involved and not her. Then, it just snowballed and I started thinking about all of the things we used to do during the warm months, and how we will never do these things together as a family unit, or take vacations together. I know I can form my own memories with my son, but I want those family memories back. I want my husband back. That is not possible I know, but it hurts so bad. I am trying so hard to do memorable things with my son, and we do, but I miss being able to share son with husband. I don't know how to get over all of this. They say it takes 2 to 3 years to get over a divorce. I can't stand this and can't imagine feeling this way for so long.
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