i have tried so hard not to contact her. and i've gone to some pretty extreme measures. taking the battery out of my phone, leaving my phone in my car, etc. but i will try to check my phone every couple of hours or so, in case someone is trying to get a hold of me. it just so happens that yesterday and today she has sent me messages. i get so weak and i try so hard not show her any signs of that weakness. but dammit i cannot help myself! i just wish things would work. i cannot keep destroying myself like this.
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