Ok, so before I talked to ex yesterday I believed in my heart that we were over, Completely! I've stayed strong, I haven't called him, I haven't returned text messages unless I absolutely had to. Now since he HAD to have a conversation with me, he has put doubt in my mind as to wether or not he truly want's it to be over. I feel now like I'm waiting for something from him, how do I stop feeling this way! Damn, I was doing so much better knowing that it was over. I've been sitting here fighting back the tears because I allowed him to get to me, to break my strength. Why would he do that? He wouldn't leave me alone, he kept texting and texting until I finally had to just give in! Why? Did he know that he would break my strength by talking to me? The only comfort I have right now is knowing that I stood up for myself, I didn't grovel, and beg him like I've done in the past. But still my heart is breaking all over again! I hate this feeling.
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