Yesterday I had such a bad day thinking about lost hopes and dreams and about he is now having those same hopes and dreams with someone else. Today started out a little better. Then he called, he didn't need to call and I know she was right there. He is always distant when she's there and now I just feel like he's rubbing it in my face, maybe not intentionally to hurt me, but to show her that yes, everything is out in the open and to further prove his love to her by showing he can talk to me in front of her. It hurts so bad I almost called him this afternoon just to tell him how cruel he is. BUT my friends and family say NO, don't call and one actually put a good spin on it and said it really doesn't matter, his mind is made up and he's not coming back. I am having a hard time dealing with that, that he's not coming back. Because sad as it is, I still want him back.
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