well ive tried everything from praying to counseling, to medicine and reaching out to friends and so and and so on, and each day seems like i feel worse. i almost feel like turning to drugs or start drinking when i wake up to just make it not hurt so bad. what do you guys suggest, i even went to church and talked to people and they prayed for me. its just i cant believe what my ex did to me, since i wouldnt let him live with me he moved in with someone else and now is with her. the reason i wouldnt let him live with me is he wouldnt work and kept drinking and not being responsible, now as far as i know he is with her and being this all nicey nice guy and father to her kids when we have a 3 year old together and he just acts like we dont exist anymore. doesnt help me support her, i turned him in to child support but that takes a while to come through. i just dont know what to do anymore to make myself happy, i have hardly any money, ive done everything i can think of to try to make myself happy and nothing is working, should i go in the hospital? i dont want to start using pot or alcohol but its really tempting right now.
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