Some of you know that I have been secretly planning to leave my stbx tomorrow. Well the shit hit the fan this morning. It actually started last night. I have been planning this move for quite a while now. I have my truck rented and a place to live, and everything set to go. We got in a fight last weekend and he said he would try harder, and actually he has been. Last night he suggested that he go to the market with me and I said no. He got angry because I would complain that he never goes, but would get angry because I didn't get everything he wanted. He didn't speak to me the rest of the night. This morning he said again that he would go with me and I said no. (That's when I am going to pick up my truck) He kept badgering me until I finally told him - no because I'm getting a truck and moving out. He was floored. He didn't believe me. He doesn't know that I have a place he thinks I am going to my daughters to stay for a while. At first he got angry, stormed out and left for work. Witnin 5 minutes he was back home begging me to stay. I kept trying to explain to him that I can't stay. He is begging for me to give him a chance. I am trying to stick to my guns, because I have to do this but how can I make him understand that I need this time apart. I don't hate him, and now I am getting so confused. I thought I was doing the right thing and now I am not so sure. I am having second thoughts. Please help. I'm desperate.
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