It could not feel more real than today. The man I'm still in love with has left to go on a plane to go stay with his new "friend" in North Carolina for the week. I am left to be in this apartment with my daughter alone to deal with my emotions. I have never felt more alone than I do right now. Having to look in his eyes when he comes back next Saturday is going to kill me. He has made it clear that he doesn't love me anymore, but I haven't been able to let go as easy as he has. I guess living with him is just a constant reminder of everything I've lost. I am sitting here crying because I am flooded with constant memories of us...I'm sure he is making his own memories with her right now. The pain is more than I can handle right now.
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