Yesterday was miserable and I didn't do much of anything at work at home, so now I am working like a mad woman to meet my month end deadline. Anyway, I was very busy when I noticed a shadow in the doorway. I looked up only to see one of the women who was "partying" with my ex-fiancee and who was part of the cause of our breakup. She needed a rental applcation. I thought I would feel anger, sadness, unhappiness - something negative but it didn't happen. I gave her the application, we talked about her housing situation a little bit and actually laughed together (because I was really busy and got tongue-twisted when trying to explain something). Anyway, we did not talk about the ex at all (even though she knows that I know who she is). For the first time in a long time, someone/something associated with that man crossed my path and it didn't hurt.

Do you think sometimes the hurt gets to be so familiar, we will hang on to it well past the stage when we have already gotten over someone? Could it be that I have gotten over that man and just refuse to let him go because the misery is familiar? While I don't want to be miserable, it is nice to think that he is out of my life and I have been so busy feeling bad that I didn't realize he doesn't really matter to me anymore. Wishful thinking perhaps, but it would be nice if that is the case.