My marriage is over (or should I say was completely destroyed) and my dreams and hopes for a happy family for me and my daughter have been shattered into a million pieces. My stbx betrayed me on every level possible and left me with a horrific mess. Everything exploded in my face right before Thanksgiving and now here I am today still trying to make my way through this devastation and this living hell. Tomorrow I will meet with my attorney to try to figure on a settlement plan and I am not looking forward to that. Friday I have to go to my required parenting class (for anyone going through a divorce with children - it's mandatory or something like that) which should also be fun. I am packing up our place by myself and will be moving me and my daughter back in with my parents very shortly. My stbx screwed everything up so that I would have no place to live with my daughter and no money to live on my own right now. Thank God for my family. This week sucks so bad. Everything is so overwhelming, depressing, humiliating. I know that I would be so much better if I didn't have to speak to and see my stbx constantly. It is driving me crazy and sets me back constantly even if I happen to be having a bearable day. We have a 2 year old daughter and he calls her daily and sees her often. That in itself is a good thing for her but I have to be so involved because she is still so young. I want to have as little conversation and interaction as possible but it just does not seem possible right now because of her age. I have so much hate and pain over everything that he has done and this constant interaction with him is killing me. I have to separate everything that has happened when it comes to our daughter and I have for her sake, but it is just so difficult to deal with the person that basically killed a piece of me each and every day. Does anyone have any tips or tricks for navigating this part of it. The thought of doing this with him for years and years because of our daughter is just too much to think of. Thanks for any advice.
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