I have been separated for 2 years & divorced a little over 1. Everyone says that in time it gets easier but for me it has gotten harder - what is wrong with me. I have dreams/nightmares about him & our family. He is doing great! He is getting married this year brought another home (because he has another income) and says he never argues w/her. His family has confirmed that he is happier. I was a good wife to him and have two good kids. He has it all now and I am in the mist of losing my home (contract job, cant find another one). Does he care - no. He is kind and considerate like he use to be to me. Thats what hurts - we had been together 20+ years and now she is benefiting from all our hard work together and he says he is happier then he ever was (although a month before his affair (not the women he is living with now) he wrote me an email note that "I love our life together." We both had baggage from our childhood but he is the cheater, looks at porn and that is why his daughter doesnt see him anymore and he's happy. What is wrong with me!
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