I'm new here and really I'm not trying to be a downer. I was just wondering if the "firsts" are really the hardest. My ex filed for divorce on December 14th and I know this is all very new, but in the past three weeks I've had to go through Christmas, New Years and (today) my birthday alone for the first time in about 18 years. It's been (obviously) very difficult. Today was a complete meltdown day for me. I guess I just wanted some reassurance that next year will be easier as it will not be the first time spending these types of holidays and celebrations alone, so to speak. I'm under no illusions that it won't be difficult in the future, I just hope it's not *quite* so hard next year - please reassure me that the pain dulls over time because right now I feel totally consumed by it.
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