My boyfriend/partner of 3 years recently made a very unexpectd decision to end our relationship, and I am having a very hard time coping with it. The details are complex (I wrote a very long journal entry including some of those details if anyone cares to read), but what it boils down to is that I gave my whole heart and life to one person, and just as we were starting our life together, he bailed. He says he loves me deeply, that I am his best friend, that he still sees me as the same attractive, funny, intelligent person that he always did. But he thinks the "spark" died and he is unwilling to try to get it back. In the mean time I devoted my whole life to him and when he walked away he took everything good in my life with him. I have been through a divorce, I have been through the death of loved ones, I have been through the failure of hopes and dreams, and I have never experienced anything like this. The pain is just as bad today as it was 6 weeks ago when it happened. I am terrified and lonely and feel like the pain is never going to dissapate, let alone go away completely. The happiness I had just two short months ago seems like it must have been a dream. I have never felt so lost in my life and I don't know how to cope.
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