Have been separated from hubby since 26th Nov; having a tough time right now. I can't understand why he doesn't phone/communicate/want to see his (our 2yo) daughter. I want to understand a 'male brain'? How does it work? Why get angry/smash things/bite yourself? Why not talk? Why blame me for everything? Why stop paying any money and spend thousands on yourself? Why say you love me and not 'show it'? Why be so lazy? Why not help out? Why not ..... I am so sad... can't stop crying... I feel so alone... losing mum and dad in '07 was hard enough...ending friendships that haven't been working made things easier and harder... but losing GG is the hardest of all... I love him, miss him... but dont' want to continue to accept all the blame, live life fearing his anger, having our daughter copy his self-biting habit/being out of control angry, don't want to keep struggling financially while he spends k's on whatever he desires....it just doesn't make sense...
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