that now that I have hit rock bottom depression I have discovered I should have been laughing when he dumped me. Gosh...why the heck did I love him anyway? I was never good enough for him. All he did was put me down. He was a huge control freak and never stopped trying to mould me into something in his head. And I have been upset he left? I know we were married 24 years, but if I had a big thorn in my foot 24 years I would be happy when someone finally pulled it out. I may be alone and middle aged but at least no one in this house is going to degrade me tonight. Hey the dawn is creeping in on me....... it's a GOOD THING he left me I wasn't happy the last 20 years anyway. He has managed to belittle me for 20 years & for some stupid reason I thought my world fell apart when he left. I refuse to shed another tear for someone who never deserved all the love they got.
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